kaberett | bits and pieces (Reply)

Have just started Rising Strong (also Brené Brown). Am partway through the introduction. So far I'm kind of at "... she... really doesn't have many hobbies that involve obsessive accident reports, huh." She just... seems to be entirely unaware of the entire genre of "here's how I fucked up, here's how I got out of it, Don't Do What I Did Kids".
A thing that seems to be helping with my insomnia at the moment, which has sort of arisen from reading Daring Greatly: promising myself that I'll look after me. I didn't really expect it to help the first time I did it and then I felt my muscles unknotting and about ten minutes later I think I was asleep. (This is notable in that if I'm by myself I'm routinely awake for around 90 minutes after lying down in the dark, having taken bed meds including ones that induce drowsiness and even after sedatives; this makes my therapists pull faces, because apparently people should Definitely Fall Asleep Within Half An Hour, which, w h a t. It's better if A is around, but as far as I can tell that's because I trust him to the point that my hindbrain is willing to accept that if he's asleep it's probably safe for me to go to sleep, but it still usually takes me A While after he's dropped off.)
Lots of exciting things in the post over the past few days, including "Victorinox appear to have given up and just sent me an entire new penknife at no charge", "the jewelry stand I ordered as an Extravagant Indulgence arrived and it is Great", and "C, who is wonderful, arranged for a botanical illustration colouring book from Kew to show up at my door, and for bonus points the previous owner has already coloured some of it in so I won't even be forever Too Afraid Of Ruining It to actually start".
Other extravagance of the week: soft blue stripey pyjama bottoms that fit me. I bought them on Monday; to first approximation I have spent almost all the subsequent time that I wasn't either in (transit to) lab or asleep Curled Up On The Sofa In Them. They are comfortable and pleasingly tactile and making me very happy (and also quite a bit warmer).
Our first annual mortgage statement arrived earlier this week: happy flativersary to us. Still baffled; still grateful.