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Jan. 19th, 2015 09:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kaberettOKAY SO I have a 20-minute appointment on the 29th with my GP. To discuss whether a PTSD diagnosis might be relevant for me.
Consequently I have promptly forgotten all of the reasons I think it might be relevant! Erm. Do you feel like crowdsourcing concrete examples of Me Doing An PTSD so that I don't have to think 'em up myself? Much obliged.
(Here is absolutely not the place to get into debates about the validity of self-diagnosis. Like, if you want to have this fight, I will win, but right now is not the time. Okay? Okay. Find me after.)
Consequently I have promptly forgotten all of the reasons I think it might be relevant! Erm. Do you feel like crowdsourcing concrete examples of Me Doing An PTSD so that I don't have to think 'em up myself? Much obliged.
(Here is absolutely not the place to get into debates about the validity of self-diagnosis. Like, if you want to have this fight, I will win, but right now is not the time. Okay? Okay. Find me after.)
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Date: 2015-01-19 10:40 pm (UTC)(my hypervigilance works differently, as the above might suggest!)
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Date: 2015-01-19 10:47 pm (UTC)You are surprisingly tentative about reasonable accommodations that involve other people in any way, such as asking if it would be sensible to lie down when your blood pressure had Done An Thing and you were dizzyfaced and Wrong at OSB.
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Date: 2015-01-19 11:05 pm (UTC)this. Especially re: TOG. You seem to be utterly terrified that you're becoming abusive, misusing people, and hurting them.
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Date: 2015-01-20 12:39 am (UTC)My triggers are varied. They include raised male voices, any suggestion of non-consensual violence, discussion of weight loss as a goal in its own right, my inner forearms being touched, visuals of recent/fresh self-harm, and the written phrase "[redacted, involves cutlery]". I don’t think anyone’s likely to trip over that last one, but it has been known to happen, so :-)
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Date: 2015-01-20 05:09 pm (UTC)I have also literally had things where I had a big *revelation* that this thing happened and was fucked up, and then I forgot for three years until I remembered again and came running in to tell partner and she was all, "...but honey, you already remembered that?"
So I think it's some sort of self-protection mechanism that is actually pretty annoying at times. If you are going to actively try to treat/face this head on, I am guessing some parts of your brain are probably fighting it and going into "hide the bad stuff" mode so it's hard to remember things (thus a symptom of the actual PTSD).
I probably used way too many words there.
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