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OKAY SO I have a 20-minute appointment on the 29th with my GP. To discuss whether a PTSD diagnosis might be relevant for me.

Consequently I have promptly forgotten all of the reasons I think it might be relevant! Erm. Do you feel like crowdsourcing concrete examples of Me Doing An PTSD so that I don't have to think 'em up myself? Much obliged.

(Here is absolutely not the place to get into debates about the validity of self-diagnosis. Like, if you want to have this fight, I will win, but right now is not the time. Okay? Okay. Find me after.)

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untonuggan

I also think the very memory problems are themselves a thing. I find keeping lists helps me remember I'm not making shit up, because some of the things that have caused problems, are likely to cause problems, etc. I either trivialize later even though they are not actually trivial or are like silverfish in my mind. I know there was *something* that happened and it bothered me, but what was it? It was probably not a big deal, or was it? Maybe I should just have a cup of tea and forget about whatever is the problem.

I have also literally had things where I had a big *revelation* that this thing happened and was fucked up, and then I forgot for three years until I remembered again and came running in to tell partner and she was all, "...but honey, you already remembered that?"

So I think it's some sort of self-protection mechanism that is actually pretty annoying at times. If you are going to actively try to treat/face this head on, I am guessing some parts of your brain are probably fighting it and going into "hide the bad stuff" mode so it's hard to remember things (thus a symptom of the actual PTSD).

I probably used way too many words there.