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kaberett ([personal profile] kaberett) wrote2015-01-19 09:30 pm
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HELLO DREAMWIDTH YOU'RE MY ONLY HOPE

OKAY SO I have a 20-minute appointment on the 29th with my GP. To discuss whether a PTSD diagnosis might be relevant for me.

Consequently I have promptly forgotten all of the reasons I think it might be relevant! Erm. Do you feel like crowdsourcing concrete examples of Me Doing An PTSD so that I don't have to think 'em up myself? Much obliged.

(Here is absolutely not the place to get into debates about the validity of self-diagnosis. Like, if you want to have this fight, I will win, but right now is not the time. Okay? Okay. Find me after.)
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[personal profile] me_and 2015-01-19 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I once pulled a funny face at you and you had a panic attack. That is not a typical reaction.
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[personal profile] aoifes_isle 2015-01-19 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't have examples of you doing them, but usefulness of "official" diagnosis varies, depending on idiocy of practitioners involved in the situation. That said, I do have copies of the "circle the number" assessment sheets often used for it, and the statements listed might help with recall of things?
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[personal profile] birke 2015-01-19 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Your reaction to being left out of the loop on your polymer's holiday?
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[personal profile] flippac 2015-01-19 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
You have the classic "no backs to doors" thing when you're facing the only other person in the building and all the entrances would be really audible?

(my hypervigilance works differently, as the above might suggest!)
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[personal profile] azurelunatic 2015-01-19 10:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Some of the triggers you have listed.

You are surprisingly tentative about reasonable accommodations that involve other people in any way, such as asking if it would be sensible to lie down when your blood pressure had Done An Thing and you were dizzyfaced and Wrong at OSB.
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[personal profile] vass 2015-01-20 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
From your own care and feeding document:

My triggers are varied. They include raised male voices, any suggestion of non-consensual violence, discussion of weight loss as a goal in its own right, my inner forearms being touched, visuals of recent/fresh self-harm, and the written phrase "[redacted, involves cutlery]". I don’t think anyone’s likely to trip over that last one, but it has been known to happen, so :-)
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[personal profile] withagreatlove 2015-01-20 01:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Wishing you much strength during what may be a very distressing time. A speedy recovery and good luck!
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[personal profile] kaberett 2015-01-20 02:41 pm (UTC)(link)
that assertiveness course and my e-mail follow-up (hat-tip to Aldabra for pointing it out as an example).
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[personal profile] untonuggan 2015-01-20 05:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I also think the very memory problems are themselves a thing. I find keeping lists helps me remember I'm not making shit up, because some of the things that have caused problems, are likely to cause problems, etc. I either trivialize later even though they are not actually trivial or are like silverfish in my mind. I know there was *something* that happened and it bothered me, but what was it? It was probably not a big deal, or was it? Maybe I should just have a cup of tea and forget about whatever is the problem.

I have also literally had things where I had a big *revelation* that this thing happened and was fucked up, and then I forgot for three years until I remembered again and came running in to tell partner and she was all, "...but honey, you already remembered that?"

So I think it's some sort of self-protection mechanism that is actually pretty annoying at times. If you are going to actively try to treat/face this head on, I am guessing some parts of your brain are probably fighting it and going into "hide the bad stuff" mode so it's hard to remember things (thus a symptom of the actual PTSD).

I probably used way too many words there.
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